The life of me

Sitting at Beijing airport, waiting for my flight to Hong Kong.
This will be the second trip to HK during the last month, but far from the last.

Have a huge project initiated by HK office and I have apparently a lead role in it. Damn. Didn’t actually want anything like that – it’s just too much at the same time. But no one ever consults me on those matters, hehe.

Doesn’t matter however. I know I can do it and will do it with perfection, just like always.

Later I need to figure out how to solve issues on my other projects but that will be a task for next week.

This trip is a bit more boring as my darling ain’t with me this time and I miss her already, but such is life. In less than two weeks I get to see her again

Time to read something..

Over and out!

I get so freaking irriterad when a certain person in my family suddenly starts attacking (verbal attacks) me without any reason..

After hearing yelling and loads of shit for over 30 minutes I simply lost my temper and had to raise my voice – which resulted in even more yelling and screaming, calling names, etc.. What a mature and stable family…

There will be no appologies to me, thats for sure..

So annoyed at the moment..

Tomorrow is quite a big day.

I am going to have the annual salary negotiations and get a general feedback about my past 6 month at Accedo. To be honest, I’m not nervous, rather excited. It’s probably the first time I am actually looking forward to this.

Usually I hate such things as I get nervous always think about the outcome and was generally unsecure about myself. I would always go, and think about what to say, how to say it, and my head would be filled with “what if”s (Oh those nasty “what if”-thoughts!).

Now, however its different. I was nervous a few weeks ago when I thought about it but then I had a coach talk and it all got better. I also read a book that my honey gave me which made things even better. So now I am calm and actually looking forward to it!

Tomorrow will be a fine day

Sitting at Arlanda and waiting for my parents’ friend to arrive. He will be staying with us for 2 weeks.

In general it is fine by me but I am actually getting “gently” kicked out for 2 weeks. Sure, I had plenty of “callender” time to fix my appartment.. But still.. This kind of sucks..

However! I can find a super positive thing in it all! I get to stay with my love for this time! And suddenly I love it all!

I kind of like the new me – finding positive in most things was different before.

Now, whenever he gets through customs, we get to go home, have breakfast and I can start packing (or rather finish) and be on my way to Elin.

WooooHooo!

Well, My honey-bunny seems to have gone down with a cold and she isn’t feeling so good right now.

I was over at her place for a few hours to look after her and hopefully I can come over quite early tomorrow as well (after all I am kind of getting kicked out from home for 2 weeks!)

Hope she will get better soon! Tons of love to you, Elin <3

I just have to say – Quattro owns.

Seriously – It’s so funny to see all the people that don’t have four-wheel drive in their cars trying to get somewhere.

On another note – I think i f***ed up my leg yesterday after falling.. Can hardly lift it which is a slight disturbance.
Oh well. shit happens!

Today has started very good:

Woke up at around 7:30 next to my honey, took it quite easy in the morning.
Got to work and found out that our new 60″ TV’s (yes, 2x 60″ 3D TVs!) are to be delivered by the end of the day!
Just had a really nice lunch with couple of colleagues and now back to work.

Today, Elin and I will be going to visit Paul & Frida – an awesome couple with two absolutely cutest kids I know

Awesome day!

Just started reading a book I got to help me find myself.

It’s scary how much one starts to think and realize just after a few pages. I only am on chapter 2 yet I realized so many things.

It truly is a great book to help one figure out things and find back to ones self.

More to come..

P.S.: Don’t really know what language to use while blogging, so will go for English.. not that it really matters – It’s more for myself than for everyone else I’m writing this.

“The first step toward change is awareness. The second step is acceptance.” – Nathaniel Branden

I had an eye opening moment yesterday…

When you are told that you’ve lost yourself and you finally realize it – it really sucks.
Not in the way that it sucks to hear it and you are sad that someone told you that – no, but in the way that you yourself haven’t realized it before. One cannot stop to wonder “Why? How did this happen? What do I do now?”

Why? – Many reasons
How? – I stopped thinking/caring about myself, just got all worked up.. Probably that’s how it all started.
What to do? – Just get back on your feet and find the way back!

Well, It’s not that I got a lot to say yet – I have still a lot to think about – but I will find my way back to the man I was before.
How was I before? – Happy about life, self-aware, self-confident in some ways, less stressed, with inner peace.

I’m really grateful to my beautiful girlfriend Elin for helping me realize all this. Without her, I wouldn’t figure it out before it was too late. But now, I know of this, I understand that this is the way I am now, a situation I am now in. NOW, I can start getting back on track.

Keep an eye out for a change, because it will happen!